In life we all get to have an accident or two.
You’re my accident.
“We’ll always have a thing”
Blurs with colors and words spoken,
But never really meant.
“I said it didn’t matter, because I’ll wait for her”
But you would never wait for me.
In fact you always said that you weren’t ready to date,
Before moving on to the flavor of the week.
And the countless relationships I’ve ruined,
Because of your misspoken words.
Your lies and what you wanted me to believe.
You’re my mistake.
And I will continue to make you.
I’ll slouch further,
Wear lower cut shirts.
Gently graze my fingers across your thigh.
No I didn’t mean it.
I didn’t touch you on purpose,
But lies aren’t believe coming from my lips.
Lips numb from begging and praying,
That someday.
You’d love me to.
But I know better.
My fingers claw at my face and neck as I try,
In what seems to be vein to tear you off my skin.
To get the way you smell of my clothes and out of my head.
I hate the way your skin feels on mine,
Only because I love the way your skin feels on mine.
And I’m trying to forget that first kiss.
You lips on mine.
It was heaven then, but not anymore.
And maybe your right and I never could articulate
The way I feel about you in so many more words then you have for me.
Because you have three main ones.
And I’m tired of them.
Don’t expect me to hang on for ever.
